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Wow guys...Just wow! Over the years in the course of making the comic, there have been numerous instances where our lives were so chaotic that I would think about just how apt a title,"Life in Aggro", actually is. We've been enveloped in it so often, that perhaps we should simply rename to Life IS Aggro...I'm certain many of you can relate to that~
The comic pretty much covers the basis of our absence for last month, but like so many other things, it's a bit deeper than six panels can let on to. It started when the computer Pie was using was having some issue...a high-pitched squeal that seemed to be an ailing fan. Sadly, in attempting to repair it, I opened a can of worms we were ill prepared to handle. Despite the using utmost caution in grounding myself and being familiar enough to get by when working on the computer, it turned out that the computer wasn't booting...
After days of trying to figure out what went wrong (including me removing the CPU and accidentally bending some pins on the motherboard >.< )a good friend and I could not seem to figure out what the issue was...all parts that we tested seem to function, but our 10-year old computer just wouldn't remain up for more than a minute. We ended up figuring something in the motherboard just gave out, likely some capacitors that looked fried...
This kind of lead me down this huge downward spiral of feeling like it was all my fault...that I did something wrong...that I ended up killing one of the keys to our livelihood and that there was no way we could afford to rebuild it (new CPU, motherboard, RAM and misc parts) and...just...so, so much stuff. This coupled with some other emotional tolls made November particularly hard to do anything. Luckily, we have some absolutely amazing friends who came to our aid in our time in need, helping provide comfort and even financial assistance to help get us back on our feet, and, though it was really difficult, it was a positive experience because we've been extremely blessed to have people we love that care so much for us.
Though the computer was part of the reason, the bigger aspect of our absence has been my inner turmoil lately, which was at it a peak during the computer crisis. As I mentioned awhile back, I realize that in order to move forward and not be so paralyzed, I need to seek help. Fortunately, I've finally been assigned a therapist after two intake assignments (been waiting on this for 5 months orzllll) and I'm scheduled to see him on Thursday and may be seeing a psychiatrist soon too, based on my second intake. I feel like I'm slowly making progress, trying to take better care of myself so I can stabilize.
Thank you, as always, for all your support and for reading this...it does mean a lot to me...to both of us.