by Pie » Sun Nov 04, 2012 11:46 pm
Bear and I hung out with Luc last month, during which he text'd a message to a friend on his phone. I started thinking how nice it must be to be in contact with friends on a constant basis. XD I'm very horrible at keeping in contact through emails and forums, but I still wish I could be social too. '_' I try to, honest, but the idea of being interrupted from work every once in a while to respond to a message bugs the heck out of me; not only that but it often takes me way too long to respond to emails (I guess I put too much thought into writing them. =/); @_@ It also breaks my concentration and doing so sounds very inefficient time/work-wise. =/ I've been tempted to start a personal twitter page, but the name I use "anifei", has already been taken by a squatter. I wonder if I should even bother. As I said, I'm so bad at socializing. '_'
I've been thinking a lot about how much I miss Taiwan. I guess you can say it's kind of a homesickness, though I've spent most of my life living in San Jose strangely. o_< I don't know what it is. I miss the environment, the trees, the city, the smell, the language, the public transportation. A lot of things have been reminding me of Taiwan lately. Making the decision to come back to America and to live with Bear was a point in my life I'll never forget. I don't regret the decision and I love the life we have together, but over the past year or so I'd wonder where my life would have led if I chose the other path. Just a couple of weeks ago, I came to the obvious realization that as much as I loved living in Taiwan, however my life would have ended up like, I believe I would have been absolutely miserable. It's strange coming to such an obvious conclusion after such a long time. I still really miss Taiwan though. I hate the fact that If I were to go back in the future, nothing will be the same.
I've been working on one of my commissions since Halloween and finally got to doing the background. Wow... I draw a LOT of rocks and stone surfaces. They're kiiiinda fun, but it's also sooooo time consuming! >.<
sorry for the long personal rant guys. @_@